As of February 20th, it has been 4 years since my diagnosis of Pre-B cell ALL Leukemia.
I would like to thank my family for always being by my side fighting this battle with me. This diagnosis didnt onmy affect me, but the closest people around me as well.
I also want to thank God for guiding ne and giving me the strength to fight the battle.
Without God and my family by my side, I dont know how I would be able to handle this.
This morning, I had physical therapy. I couldn’t wait for it because of getting new orders from my shoulder surgeon, Dr. Kam.
As soon as I walked in, they noticed I didn’t have the brace on. I then told them how excited I was and that I had new protocol for them. Some new exercises were added with new orders. With these new orders, comes harder work outs. Today, those exercises really kicked my butt! Lol! Today we added pullies and a bar exercise the stretches out my arm. I was really worked out today! Added these new exercises, I really need to stay on to of my pain medication.
Although, I was in pain after physical therapy I am glad to be at this point in my journey. I am so proud of myself and how hard I have worked! It is the little victories! I am thankful my arm is doing well enough to increase my exercises. I thank my family, friends and everyone who has supported me! I thank God for giving me the strength to endure these things!
(Boy am I sore though! They really kicked my booty!)
Yesterday, I have had my 6 week after surgery appointment with Dr. Kam. He previously told us after 6 weeks out from my replacement I wouldn’t have to wear the brace anymore and we would get new orders for physical therapy.
When we went to my appointment yesterday he said that I don’t need the brace anymore, except for when school starts to make people more aware. He also said I can start to move it just no pushing, pulling, lifting, or putting it behind my back. He gave us some new protocol to follow for physical therapy. He helped me active assistively move my arm. At the end of the visit, we looked at the x-rays he had taken when we got there. My shoulder replacement looks amazing, everything is lining up properly and nothing is hurt or damaged. It looks really nice and clean.
I am so thankful for all the people who have supported me and helped me get through this. Especially, with all I have been dealing with lately. I am so happy with all my progress I have made. I have been working hard and trying to not push myself but not slack off at the same time. I thank God for supporting and being by my side and letting me never lose faith.
I am so thankful for the people in my life that are pouring into me and encouraging me! Tonight, a very special someone did just that.
A friend of mine named, Krystal, asked if I would like to hang out with her and I said, “Yes!” We went to Starbucks and had some coffee and tea and just talked. She really poured into me tonight! I really appreciated it! I have been going through some things emotionally and in my walk with Christ. She really gave me some great advice when talking to me. When we talked I was vulnerable and honest about what was going on. I cried and just let it out, and I am thankful for her being there for me to do that. She has such a beautiful heart and is an amazing woman! Thank you Krystal for the stories, especially the personal stories and advice you shared with me! Again, thanks for pouring into me and being real and open with me! It was such a nice time to talk and be real with someone in person, to talk face to face.
Krystal, you have a special place in my heart and am grateful to have met you! I can’t wait to hang out again! I hope I can pour into you and tell you how amazing you are just like you did for me. I love you!! An I am so thankful for a sister in Christ like you! ??
I want to thank my beautiful friend Natalie for always being there for me. As you guys know from my last post, I am going through some things. She has always been there for me. Through everything she has been there for me and encouraging me. She is so sweet, always lifting me up and helping me see the bright side of things. I am so grateful for the people like that in my life.
Here is an uplifting text message from my best friend, Natalie:
You are so strong Alyssa, it’s crazy. You have reached the light at the end of the tunnel. You did it. You made it through some really really rough stuff. And now, it’s all about making that light brighter. Continue to stay strong no matter what, because of everyone I know, you deserve to be the happiest. While you were going through worlds of pain, unable to handle pain, you still thought about everyone around you. You didn’t worry about yourself and the pain and everything you were going through. You worried about your family, and me, and all your friends. And that Alyssa, is the most beautiful thing I have heard of. That’s why you made it. You are the strongest person I know. So, you made it to the end of the tunnel. It’s no longer dark. It’s beautiful now.
Thank you Natalie for the friendship and hope you give me! We will always be friends and I’ll always be there for you! When ever you need me, I will be there. Love you, Natalie!
Love your best friend, Alyssa??
So I’m just going to be real, everything isn’t all sunshine and rainbows as it may seem. I am may seem so brave and strong, but truth be told I’m not always that strong girl. Honestly, I am tired and frustrated right now. I am sick and tired of cancer! I may be done with treatment, but now I will have long term side effects for the rest of my life. Chemotherapy killed the cancer, but now I am stuck with fixing everything it messed up. I am frustrated with everything I have to endure and go through. I am tired of being in pain and taking pain medication. It wears down my body. I have been through so much and don’t want to go through anything else. I feel like no one understands, my family gets it but at the same time doesn’t get it. Even though they don’t always get it, I thank them for their support. Whenever there is a teen scene with Candlelighters, I am not feeling well or worn out. I really need to talk to other teens that have been through what I have been through.
Right now, I really need prayer! I don’t want to go into a deep depression over this. I just really need you guys to pray for me right now. I am just going through some things. Your prayers are so greatly appreciated! I know God will help me through this, I just need to have faith in him.
Hey guys! I am so sorry I am updating so late. It has been crazy since I got out of the hospital. I have been on heavy medicine, which causes me to sleep a lot.
I have been doing well though. The surgery was a success and everything went well. Thanks to Dr. Kam, my amazing doctor and surgeon. I am now two weeks out from surgery. I started physical therapy right away, only doing passive movements. Which means I can’t move my arm by myself.
For a little back story; due to the AVN the steroids and cancer treatments caused, I had to under go surgery. From the AVN, my shoulder began to collapse. It had went so far that my last two options were having a half shoulder replacement or using a cadaver. So, knowing this I prayed about it. After praying for a week or so, I felt like God was telling me to continue with the shoulder replacement.
Through this process, I thank God for helping me through this journey so far and being by my side! He gives me the strength to get through everything I have gone through. Just like my bible verse that helped me through my cancer, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” With God by my side I can do or go through anything! I would also like to thank everyone who has stood by my side and supported me! Especially my family, they have always been right by my side cheering me on. I am so thankful for that! They love me to death and I love them too! They do anything to cheer me up and put a smile on my face! Another person whose support I am thankful for is my best friend Natalie. Even though she lives many miles away in California, she supports me lots. Our talks help calm me down and know that I can get through this. I love her lots and am thankful for a bestie like her!