Let’s Be Real-Sharing My Feelings

So I’m just going to be real, everything isn’t all sunshine and rainbows as it may seem. I am may seem so brave and strong, but truth be told I’m not always that strong girl. Honestly, I am tired and frustrated right now. I am sick and tired of cancer! I may be done with treatment, but now I will have long term side effects for the rest of my life. Chemotherapy killed the cancer, but now I am stuck with fixing everything it messed up. I am frustrated with everything I have to endure and go through. I am tired of being in pain and taking pain medication. It wears down  my body. I have been through so much and don’t want to go through anything else. I feel like no one understands, my family gets it but at the same time doesn’t get it. Even though they don’t always get it, I thank them for their support. Whenever there is a teen scene with Candlelighters, I am not feeling well or worn out. I really need to talk to other teens that have been through what I have been through.

Right now, I really need prayer! I don’t want to go into a deep depression over this. I just really need you guys to pray for me right now. I am just going through some things. Your prayers are so greatly appreciated! I know God will help me through this, I just need to have faith in him.

Surgery Update

July 9,

Hey guys! I am so sorry I am updating so late. It has been crazy since I got out of the hospital. I have been on heavy medicine, which causes me to sleep a lot.

I have been doing well though. The surgery was a success and everything went well. Thanks to Dr. Kam, my amazing doctor and surgeon. I am now two weeks out from surgery. I started physical therapy right away, only doing passive movements. Which means I can’t move my arm by myself.

For a little back story; due to the AVN the steroids and cancer treatments caused, I had to under go surgery. From the AVN, my shoulder began to collapse. It had went so far that my last two options were having a half shoulder replacement or using a cadaver. So, knowing this I prayed about it. After praying for a week or so, I felt like God was telling me to continue with the shoulder replacement.

Through this process, I thank God for helping me through this journey so far and being by my side! He gives me the strength to get through everything I have gone through. Just like my bible verse that helped me through my cancer, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” With God by my side I can do or go through anything!                                                                                                                    I would also like to thank everyone who has stood by my side and supported me! Especially my family, they have always been right by my side cheering me on. I am so thankful for that! They love me to death and I love them too! They do anything to cheer me up and put a smile on my face!                                                                                       Another person whose support I am thankful for is my best friend Natalie. Even though she lives many miles away in California, she supports me lots. Our talks help calm me down and know that I can get through this. I love her lots and am thankful for a bestie like her!

An Essay I Wrote for English

I wanted to share with you all the essay I wrote for English. We had to write an essay about an event that changed our lives.

My Essay:
There have been many life changing events in my life. Although, this one stood out to me the most. This event changed my life for the better, it made me so much stronger. My life changing event is when I went through a two and a half year cancer journey.

Finding out I had cancer was the most devastating news I have ever received. You notice the commercials asking you to donate to kids with cancer, but you never imagine it happening to you. Cancer is a serious disease, but you never think about it until you’re impacted.

On February 20th, 2013, I was diagnosed with a form of childhood leukemia. Before we found out, I had been sick all winter along with my siblings. We never suspected anything so serious. The Thursday before, I was at the doctors where they fought over whether my spleen was enlarged. They then came to the conclusion this it was just muscle and growing pains.
Earlier on the nineteenth, u had made food and take a bite. When my parents arrived home they noticed I hadn’t eaten. After that, my mom said, ” You need to eat, don’t get up until your done.” I did finish. When I went to sit down on the couch, I screamed bloody murder. I had sharp pain in my abdomen and was in tears. My dad had enough and drove me to the emergency room.

I awoke to paramedics moving me to another gurney to transport me to Sunrise. I was our of it, but still felt a sense of fear. When we arrived, my mother was waiting for us with fear in our eyes. My dad later showed up and a doctor came in. He asked my mom if my dad had told her the “L” word. She said no and asked him what he was talking about. My dad mumbles, “Leukemia, but it’s not that.” The doctor confirmed that it was that, but he didn’t know what kind. I was immediately hooked up to machines and moved to Pediactric Cancer floor. From there, my port was placed, I recieved blood and platelet transfusions, and started treatment.

This journey has taught me so much. It has taught me to always look to God for help. I also learned to always think positive. No matter what, I needed to be strong for not only myself, but for my family as well. I have always tried to be strong throughout this journey, I then realized I needed to give it to God. I have made a second family and so many new friends throughout this journey. So many people have told me that I am an inspiration and keep them going. I have grown so much closer to God throughout this journey. I am so thankful to have beat this!

This event is so near and dear to me. I have grown I much and am so thankful for that. An now I will be one year cancer free in June 10th! I am so thankful to all the people who have gotten me through this.

 

Great Cycle Challenge USA

Hey guys! I wanted to tell you all about something my uncle is doing, it is called the Great Cycle Challenge. The Great Cycle Challenge is where you ride everyday for the month of June to fight Childhood Cancer. You can make a team or sign just yourself up. You set a goal for how many miles you want to achieve and how much money you want to raise. It is super cool! It is amazing that people are doing this!

My uncle has decided to do it. He posted on Facebook that he would be riding for me. I am so appreciative of him for doing this! I am so thankful for him doing this for me and other children who are fighting cancer. His goal is to ride 245 miles and raise $500. I am so proud of him for doing this challenge! You can do it Uncle David! God will give you the strength do this! “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13

If God puts it on your heart to donate, please do. Below is the link to his page:                  https://greatcyclechallenge.com/Riders/DavidCunninghamJr?utm_source=dashboard&utm_medium=facebook&utm_campaign=gcc_profile_ind_new_ride&fb_ref=Default

 

My Family is Always There to Help Me No Matter What

I used to have a hard time with thinking I was a burden on my family during my cancer journey. I thought because they had to do the majority of things for me I was being a burden. Due to me being sick a lot from treatment an developing AVN, I needed assistance for many things. Sometimes, I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed I was so sick or hurting so badly. My family was always there, though. Looking back I don’t understand why I would or could ever think that! My family loves me so much and would do anything for me. They may get tired of me calling for them every couple minutes for help, but they are happy to help me. They have been by my side throughout this entire journey. I just want everyone going through anything to know,  you are not a burden! The people who are helping you are there because they want to be and they care about you. The devil just wants you to think you aren’t good enough to get all the love and help you are receiving. He wants you to push everyone away. God says, “NO, you are my child and you deserve this help and you are NOT a burden!”

Now, whenever I start having thoughts about being a burden I say:
“I am NOT a burden. I need to let people help me. If they ask me if I need help I should say YES. Or if I need help I need to ASK! My family is here to HELP ME and I need to let them. God gave me such an amazing family for a reason; to be there for me, help me, and to love me. I am NOT a burden!”

Remembering Cooper

I have been trying to find the words to express how I am feeling with the loss of an amazing warrior. In March, we lost another strong cancer fighter, Cooper. Cancer is a monster and it doesn’t ask your permission to take over your life.

I truly miss Cooper dearly. He fought so hard and always kept faith and smiled throughout it all. He had such a huge smile on his face throughout all of his journey, no matter the circumstance. Cancer is the worst thing I have ever went through and wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. Seeing all these warriors fighting is amazing. They are so strong and Cooper was just as strong. He was kind – hearted, caring, strong, an amazing son, wonderful brother, friendly, and a huge inspiration! Him not being here is so hard, especially for his family and all who were close to him. I didn’t know him personally, but we did talk many times and he was so sweet.

I am heartbroken that he is gone, I can’t even imagine what his family is going through. I know he would want everyone who came in contact with him to remember the good times they had, the smiles he brought, and how hard he fought. I know he is looking down on his family and friends smiling down on them. I know he is touched by the wonderful things that were said at the candlelight vigil. Although, he is gone he will never be forgotten. He will forever be embedded into our hearts.

I want to say a prayer for the family. Dear Lord, I ask that you comfort Cooper’s family right now, blanket them in your love. Let them know that you are there for them. Help them to remember that he is no longer suffering and he is looking down on them happy about the way they are honoring and remembering him. Bring peace into their hearts Lord. Let them have peace in knowing that he is with you and not hurting. Send them and Cooper all our love. Jesus in your mighty name, AMEN!!

If you guys feel like God is putting on your heart to help this family here is there Go Fund Me: https://www.gofundme.com/teamcoop

 

Prayer & Support for Our Warriors

So, this week has been rough. Monday would have been my uncles 30th birthday, but he is no longer here with us. Along with that, a sweet cancer fighter lost her battle. Then, after that I got more terrible news my friend who also is Battling Cancer isn’t doing to well, his name is Cooper. Please pray for him and all the other children in the world who are fighting this horrible disease called CANCER!  I’m asking everyone will you please help my friend Cooper & his family. They have been in the Hospital for over 100 days, If you can donate at least $1, Cooper’s family and I would appreciate it just click on the link:  https://www.gofundme.com/teamcoop

I have been hurting a lot this week. Although, I have been hurting God has been by my families side and all the other families side as well. He is helping us through these heart breaking days. God had a special plan for these wonderful peoples lives and now he doesn’t want them to suffer any more. I trust in God’s plan, but sometimes you can’t help but wonder why…. God’s plan and mission is always bigger than ours and only he knows what it en-tells. I thank God for these lovely people in our lives and the lives they have touched.

Lord, I pray for all the families that are grieving at this time lord. Comfort them and blanket them in peace and your love. Lay your hand on their heart and help them get through this. Help them understand that they won’t be suffering anymore. Let your light shine in their lives. All things happen for a reason, let this reason be known to the families. Let the families know their angels are watching them, are proud of them and love them so very much. I pray this in your name, AMEN!!!

Thank You Ariell!

A lady named, Ariell, who works at my clinic made me a gift. She misses my No More Chemo Party (I still have to post that, I thought I did, sorry guys) so she wanted to get me something. Well, when I opened the box she gave me, it imageblew me away!

She had made me a beautiful bracelet that has a bottle cap and inside it says, “That which does not kill me makes me stronger.” It is so beautiful! She also made me a beautiful medallion that can have a chain added to it so I can wear it! She is so talented! I am so thankful to you for these beautiful pieces of jewelry! Love you, Ariell! image

Making A Difference

Hey guys! I want to tell you about a great ideal I had! I noticed that my high school did something for Breast Cancer and also when Paris was attacked. I started to think, since September is Childhood Cancer month I would love for them to do something to support it.

1c6d316b-13ab-4e83-8892-3f7b44266ff4My ideal is that everyone can wear fun, bright colored socks for the month in honor of the spirits of the kids fighting. Also to make a banner and hang it in the quad. Then I could make and sell cancer ribbon shaped chocolate (like my family and I did one year) and give the money raised to a cancer foundation. I really 12369098_1618607171693418_4172546160857115691_nwant to MAKE A DIFFERENCE in the world! Not everyone understands what I and other kids and teens like me have and are going through in this battle. It would be great to raise awareness for something that means so much to me!! I want to use my testimony to tell people how great God is and give people incite on what I went through.