Lately, my shoulder has been hurting because I pushed it too far. I think I was rushing things and taking my time to properly stretch it out. It doesn’t help that I don’t go to PT because of some issues. I am left on my own to work it out and have been pushing it too far. I just need to slow down and take it one day at a time. I was so worried that I messed something in my shoulder up, but I grabbed a verse (from my scripture jar a friend made me) that reminded of something. It reads, “The LORD, your God will be with you always. Joshua 1:9” I know God will take care of me. He will never leave me. He knows my pain and he gives me the strength to get through it. HE isn’t only the God of my triumphs, but the God of my struggles as well.
Yesterday, I came home from school and my mom said she had something for me. She pointed to T.V. stand where there was a clear bag. I was confused about what it was until, I realized that it was……MY PORT! I was so excited! It is a memory I get to keep. It symbolizes all I have went through and the end of a part of my journey. IT IS SO AMAZING! God is good, and I am so thankful that he has been by my side. As well as giving me my family to walk this journey with me.
Everyone please say a prayer for me. I have been feeling really bad this past week and today. As well as being in a lot of pain. ??I just need prayers, please and thank you! I give all of my pain and sick feelings to God and will let him handle it.
So I know you guys probably read my Wheelchair Raint a little while back, I have an update on that.
For the past 3 weeks I have been walking in school and not using the wheelchair. My wheelchair went out the Sunday before the day I was supposed to go to school. It just gave out. I decided that I would just walk around the school but use the elevator. I wasn’t going to push myself, but I knew I could do it. After the frst day,I felt great. My parents found someone that xould fix the chair but I wanted to walk. I told them I’d pray over it and see what I wanted to do. I felt God telling me to do it amd not to limit myself. That I needed to trust in him and myself, not to doubt him or let anyone doubt me. Ever since then, I have been walking in school. A HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENT FOR ME!!
This last Friday at physical therapy was and reevaluation day. I am so excited to tell you guys what happened.
So Friday at physical we had to do a rereevaluation. My therapist Natalie tested my active and active/passive range of motion. I am so excited with how far I have come after my half shoulder replacement surgery.
We started with my normal routine and then started with the evaluation. We tested my active range of motion, which is me moving/lifting my arm by myself. Going straight out front I got to 90°, to the side I got to 78°, and with my arm my side bent at at the elbow I got 0° (and we’re only aloud to go to 30°). We then did some active/passive table stretching. Going straight out to the front she stretched me out to 122°, going out to the side she got me to 120°, and with my arm by my side with my arm bent pushing it outward she got me to 16° (and we’re only aloud to go to 30°).
I am beyond proud of myself! I am can’t believe how far I have come! I am so thankful to all the people who pushed me, helped me, and believed in me. I have worked so hard to get where I am today. I thank God for never leaving me and standing by me throughout everything.
This morning, I had physical therapy. I couldn’t wait for it because of getting new orders from my shoulder surgeon, Dr. Kam.
As soon as I walked in, they noticed I didn’t have the brace on. I then told them how excited I was and that I had new protocol for them. Some new exercises were added with new orders. With these new orders, comes harder work outs. Today, those exercises really kicked my butt! Lol! Today we added pullies and a bar exercise the stretches out my arm. I was really worked out today! Added these new exercises, I really need to stay on to of my pain medication.
Although, I was in pain after physical therapy I am glad to be at this point in my journey. I am so proud of myself and how hard I have worked! It is the little victories! I am thankful my arm is doing well enough to increase my exercises. I thank my family, friends and everyone who has supported me! I thank God for giving me the strength to endure these things!
(Boy am I sore though! They really kicked my booty!)
Yesterday, I have had my 6 week after surgery appointment with Dr. Kam. He previously told us after 6 weeks out from my replacement I wouldn’t have to wear the brace anymore and we would get new orders for physical therapy.
When we went to my appointment yesterday he said that I don’t need the brace anymore, except for when school starts to make people more aware. He also said I can start to move it just no pushing, pulling, lifting, or putting it behind my back. He gave us some new protocol to follow for physical therapy. He helped me active assistively move my arm. At the end of the visit, we looked at the x-rays he had taken when we got there. My shoulder replacement looks amazing, everything is lining up properly and nothing is hurt or damaged. It looks really nice and clean.
I am so thankful for all the people who have supported me and helped me get through this. Especially, with all I have been dealing with lately. I am so happy with all my progress I have made. I have been working hard and trying to not push myself but not slack off at the same time. I thank God for supporting and being by my side and letting me never lose faith.
Here is an update on physical therapy and how it is going.
I am making a lot of progress in physical therapy. I have stopped gaurding and have let loose. I get into my head when i am at physical therapy and start to tighten up.
Today though, I did really great! My motion up to 90° is doing great! My shoulder is healing well and my motion is doing well. My degree measurement is almost at 90° at all angles which is a huge accomplishment. My pain level has also decreased and I am not taking as much pain medicine. I am so thankful for that.
I am so proud of myself for working so hard! I thank God for helping me work through this. I also thank Natalie and Morgan for working with me at physical therapy. They make physical therapy so much fun. He is my strength and has been getting me through all of this. I have to just keep my faith in him as I gi through this. I also thank my family for supporting me. They are always encouraging me.
So I’m just going to be real, everything isn’t all sunshine and rainbows as it may seem. I am may seem so brave and strong, but truth be told I’m not always that strong girl. Honestly, I am tired and frustrated right now. I am sick and tired of cancer! I may be done with treatment, but now I will have long term side effects for the rest of my life. Chemotherapy killed the cancer, but now I am stuck with fixing everything it messed up. I am frustrated with everything I have to endure and go through. I am tired of being in pain and taking pain medication. It wears down my body. I have been through so much and don’t want to go through anything else. I feel like no one understands, my family gets it but at the same time doesn’t get it. Even though they don’t always get it, I thank them for their support. Whenever there is a teen scene with Candlelighters, I am not feeling well or worn out. I really need to talk to other teens that have been through what I have been through.
Right now, I really need prayer! I don’t want to go into a deep depression over this. I just really need you guys to pray for me right now. I am just going through some things. Your prayers are so greatly appreciated! I know God will help me through this, I just need to have faith in him.
Hey guys! I am so sorry I am updating so late. It has been crazy since I got out of the hospital. I have been on heavy medicine, which causes me to sleep a lot.
I have been doing well though. The surgery was a success and everything went well. Thanks to Dr. Kam, my amazing doctor and surgeon. I am now two weeks out from surgery. I started physical therapy right away, only doing passive movements. Which means I can’t move my arm by myself.
For a little back story; due to the AVN the steroids and cancer treatments caused, I had to under go surgery. From the AVN, my shoulder began to collapse. It had went so far that my last two options were having a half shoulder replacement or using a cadaver. So, knowing this I prayed about it. After praying for a week or so, I felt like God was telling me to continue with the shoulder replacement.
Through this process, I thank God for helping me through this journey so far and being by my side! He gives me the strength to get through everything I have gone through. Just like my bible verse that helped me through my cancer, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” With God by my side I can do or go through anything! I would also like to thank everyone who has stood by my side and supported me! Especially my family, they have always been right by my side cheering me on. I am so thankful for that! They love me to death and I love them too! They do anything to cheer me up and put a smile on my face! Another person whose support I am thankful for is my best friend Natalie. Even though she lives many miles away in California, she supports me lots. Our talks help calm me down and know that I can get through this. I love her lots and am thankful for a bestie like her!